burst forth to a stronger you.

Where do you begin? You begin with your face.


That is where it begins and continues to go back to.

Nature is showing me my beauty within my inner gizzards.

that is me, and I am it.

That is my face.

and that is what I have to continuously have to get back to.

hOMe.

 first run of the boat

 driving the Black Hills

 Look from bellow

 Bear Country (look at those cutes. made my day!)

 Moss and Mushhees

 ant village under a rock

 Colipso Orchid

 Old timer tunes/ harmonica by my side

 DOUBLE RAINBOW

 Dirty Biking for the first time

 1,2,3, JUMP

Something white is living in those waters. It sure is beautiful

Nature is beauty and that is what I am inside as well as out.

Thank you.

All I want from you is to learn about you which is learning about me.

do I need to learning about navigating the skies?

or

do I need to learning the navigation of life?

As a woman, I notice the intuitive powers I do have. The processing; I am growing to love. Also, the "Turtle Time"; That I have began to lust over, time and time again... I hope soon, I will obtain turtle time unconditionally.

In the moments I am speaking to the emotional strength. The strength to choose what is best for the whole of independence. You can obtain this whole independence by fully in-gauging in your feminine self and finding liberty of being a Woman. It is not  a woman wearing mens clothing, but a true goddess. As I have experience it take a lot more effort than you think ladies.  The first thing is to  of course, knowing what you want. If you don't know what you want, then how will you every know how liberty can play a roll in your life.  The second thing is your personal boundaries. How far are you going to go to get what you want? Does it dismay your personal boundaries? Are you willing to compromise? Can you really let go and do it a different way? Can you imagine that it can only get better? BECAUSE IT CAN!


I do not usually pour out my thoughts on this blog other than pictures and little anchors of my life. Hence I have been in a place of no close friends next to me I have decided to say some things that I have been pondering, that I wanted to share.

So, my question to you readers....

What are you passionate about in these moment?

What are you missing in these moments?

who are you?

What is your favorite story?

Where is your favorite place to go?

What are your dreams?

What do you want?

Where do you want to go first?


butterfly kisses and eskimo kisses.


SOUTH DAKOTA....


MOM time
Cooking at home with LOVE
FAMILY AUNTS UNCLES AND CUSINS.
I am a FOX

decedent food and wine
Weddings
Meeting people
oh buffalo!

 Ham and potato soup, to die for, really.

 Wine Cellar. amazing food.

 buffaloooo

 wedding beauty

250 people/barn loving/dancing fun.

Love to all of you!!

Be well, and enjoy. Please if you feel like answering the questions I wrote, or just have something to say... SAY IT.. I would love to hear from everyone!

What is your story?

Farm time

Meeting the family as they heard toward us to welcome us.

This is my Gypsy Grandpa Billy. knowing that some part of me has Gypsy life style. I learn a great deal of my lineage. I greatly appreciate this man for his respect for life woman, men, animals, music.

This is the organizing and cooking after a hard day making new beds for gardening.

Me, Mooky, Steven

Coffee Creek Community.

Beautiful people.

lovely guard dog.

I found Freedom in my bike ride to another farm where A beautiful family lives.

John and Hanna.. with their new daughter GRACE.

what a healing and blessings she is.

dang.

As soon as I walked up to the porch.. there laid 2 cute little kitties!

Meow!

Grace unfolds.

Centering.

I helped and learned how to can!

Beans and JAMS.

YUMM!

I learned how to play the Ukulele.

I made a song,

still in the works with the lyrics.

so much fun!

Over the Hill there is always something to get back to.

I have learned a lot from this trip.

I cannot say it has been easy. but the rewards have been sweet and ever turning.

* Plus to remember is that I read my book to people my age and they loved it and wanted a copy.. it was probably the best reading.

fucking profound. as if.

sometime I wonder if I can even harness this energy.

dang.

*another amazing this is that I recorded my DIDGERIDOO.. so SOLO CD will be coming out soon!

in between creations

Hello,

I have wanted to update this blog for a while, but at the same time, The changes in my life do not feel the need to be written down.

The simple things, I will write down to inform my friends and family of my where abouts.

• . I backed up my things and my books and records are in boxes.
• . I carry my clothes, book, art, and communication gadgets.
• . I will be settling up in the NW(washington) until it is time to get the ball moving.
• . working on funding as well as a book tour to read to communities/library/ ect. anywhere I can read my book.
• . http://anewhome.tumblr.com/ << follow the book happenings.

.the rest is images.

Brothers. LA

end on cycle.

between the 2 there a the essence of the seed of life

Travel thru the rainbow gathering to be with love and sister hood

Continue to see death in all different manifestations blessing to my family and yours

Thru the shadow I find bliss and a time to rest.

I find a sister that we share a meal and an experience by the water.

Alfa male curls in the nest. We find balance in each other.

Creation of completion of a meal (chai cupcakes with a expresso glaze)

but, wonders of beauty ahead of her.

Ebb flow of

(German chocolate cupcake(raspberry filling)-(German chocolate cupcake)

day of birth of a good friend anna.

to be continued.

What really matters? seriwous

I have had a different sleeping pattern, which it is okay. I feel like I still get thing accomplished.

This moment reminds me when I was younger. I used to never sleep. I would listen to music make things or rearrange my room, or something of that matter. It is the only time where I am the only one awake. It is nice. It is making me feel like myself again.

A lot has changed. Like, everything got peeled away. Everything that was not serving me, left. Left with grace. In my mind I am like.. "hmmm.. this is interesting."

Different perspective is what I can say about Japan. Blessings. words cannot describe.

I lost 2 members of my linage. both Barbanell's. One was very dear to me. I still am trying to figure out how to process such things. But, maybe I have, and I know my Grate Aunt Flo is always going to be with me.. I hope to be in Long Island, NY in July.
The other was LiLi Barbanell. I wanted to meet her before she passed. She lived in Australia. It is funny how things connect. One more reason why to go to Australia.

I do not feel confused of who I am anymore. More like, this is life. I want the real life and the real Truth.

More and more I experience, the more it is hard to find.

These moments of life I feel grateful for such understanding. I do my best to not live in fear.

I haven't been going out much, I feel that I have things to complete for myself. It is and inward experience that I am getting used to.

*I am almost complete with my children's kids book for Polarity/awareness

*I am almost done with Clinic hours.

I hope to be back in the NW in April. To play a Didgeridoo show.

I feel like it would be good for me to get out there. To show my true colors. I have a lot of support for my music up there. I have a sense of urge to be drenched in it. It will be empowering.
Another reason is to see Dole. He is still in Portland, OR with my friend Myron and his daughter Ama.

I have that feeling of waiting for the universe to show me a path of my next step in my life.


It is different. It feels good. It will just happen. I can handle that.

I will also be holding a Didgeridoo workshop. April 2nd. whoo hoo.


(THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE SLAP HAPPY/ listening to pure metal)
psss.. not to mention supporting the lord of darkness and all things truly evil and foul by creating super cute things... automatically creating polarity in all exposed to the madness.


PSS... I have a Travel blog now.. Things will be a little separate. here is the link:
http://travelpod.com/members/beccadang



Journey well,

Becx

no matter where I go I will always find truth.

Once again I am updating, because I don't see much of you.
this is what I can share so you can get a lease a piece of the jigsaw puzzle I have created.

*I am still working at Echo Coffee. I really love the people who I work with. For some reason working at a coffee shop gives me great balance in my life.... and through there I find the resource I need for my other aspects of my life.
*I might be getting funding for my book, which is amazing. I hope that works out because I need it.. I am really glad I am not rushing this project. I was at first, but I think it has enough fire to continue to burn. It reminded me of one of my intentions for the book..... ask for community help... I realized I could just take matters in my own hands and just get it done... but letting go of that... I found people willing to help me and have it organically grow through community efforts. I feel truly blessed and not stressed in the moment. haha... in the moments......
* I wanted a art show I have gotten it.... in 3 folds, in the matter of couple days apart. hahaha.... but it will work out. I am excited. one will be a installation piece.
* the clinic feels good too... I finally reached the rains of the carriage.. and I feel in my place, FINALLY, which is nice. We are taking 2 weeks off... I feel like a break is needed..... and pace the 2 weeks, and change up the energy a bit. Next year..... WHOO HOOO!!!
*I am excited to work on another kids book. which I have started.. and the story I really enjoy.


Main charter.... first time drawling realistically


*Still deciding what is happening next. It is funny. because I am more in the moments in my life that I cannot dream about what is next.. what is next is what is next like. HI, EVERYONE. Life is a dream....

Till next time............... deep sea .



Here are some pictures:

I had to stop from my bike ride home from work and just BE in this beauty.

Richard my co worker saw that the leaf got some guns man... look at those muscles

I am in a place I call home after (NYC/LONGISLAND)

I have come to realize this is for me to remember what I have done and what I am doing.. I tend to forget how much I do. I also forget how full my life really is.. this is a reminder.

Whoa.

NYC/Long island.

Bizzarr, family, lower east side, brooklyn, Manhattan, comic con, ADI DA ART SHOWING!, 10 MOONs(Heather as her beautiful self and others), the opposities!

Since my travels I have been more motivated to continue my life in the most creative way possible.

I continue to have crazy tall tails happening to me along the way.

I finally feel like myself again thanks to a wonderful lady Junko.

It took me almost a month to gather everything that has occurred of the time line from my birthday till yesterday.

everything is relative, thank you Albert.

I am full of things to do to continue my crafting of myself.

I am in Arizona to gather up my strengths and credential's to able me to feel confident in my being.

I finally got a computer (thanks to Jessica <3) I am able to finally edit the kids book hunter and I have been working on for a year or so!! hurray!!!! I am so stoked to publish this... my heart flutters!

Raw cacao has been my side mate on this journey and I honor its pure essence.

The building of my life. moving forward.

Coordinating a clinic for myself and other therapist to use their gifts. The ground works for further possibilities in the medical worlds. I can be a business woman.

SIDE PROJECTS

Sign work for Conspire. A collective of artist coming together to sell/work on art. little bits of treats and drinks. New art.... figured out something awesome. all about windows, no more doors. Continue to co create.. grown, support, love. as I see it.

*Art up at Southwest Institute of Healing Arts. I hope to do a whole piece soon. Crafting as I type out these words. About my experience there. Creation.

*I got a Job at a coffee shop called Echo Coffee. http://www.echocoffee.com/

*I will have my therapy room up soon.. collaborating with a European facial and wax lady. Stoked. trades and clients galore!

*Starting to illustrate another kids book, this time it is not my story... butt..... somehow the frequency of the story relates to me.

*I'm learning about wines and wine tasting as well, if anyone is interested on wine tasting let me know.

till next time.

everything is a balancing act.

blessings, be well,

Becccaaa!!!!!