I have had a different sleeping pattern, which it is okay. I feel like I still get thing accomplished.
This moment reminds me when I was younger. I used to never sleep. I would listen to music make things or rearrange my room, or something of that matter. It is the only time where I am the only one awake. It is nice. It is making me feel like myself again.
A lot has changed. Like, everything got peeled away. Everything that was not serving me, left. Left with grace. In my mind I am like.. "hmmm.. this is interesting."
Different perspective is what I can say about Japan. Blessings. words cannot describe.
I lost 2 members of my linage. both Barbanell's. One was very dear to me. I still am trying to figure out how to process such things. But, maybe I have, and I know my Grate Aunt Flo is always going to be with me.. I hope to be in Long Island, NY in July.
The other was LiLi Barbanell. I wanted to meet her before she passed. She lived in Australia. It is funny how things connect. One more reason why to go to Australia.
I do not feel confused of who I am anymore. More like, this is life. I want the real life and the real Truth.
More and more I experience, the more it is hard to find.
These moments of life I feel grateful for such understanding. I do my best to not live in fear.
I haven't been going out much, I feel that I have things to complete for myself. It is and inward experience that I am getting used to.
*I am almost complete with my children's kids book for Polarity/awareness
*I am almost done with Clinic hours.
I hope to be back in the NW in April. To play a Didgeridoo show.
I feel like it would be good for me to get out there. To show my true colors. I have a lot of support for my music up there. I have a sense of urge to be drenched in it. It will be empowering.
Another reason is to see Dole. He is still in Portland, OR with my friend Myron and his daughter Ama.
I have that feeling of waiting for the universe to show me a path of my next step in my life.
It is different. It feels good. It will just happen. I can handle that.
I will also be holding a Didgeridoo workshop. April 2nd. whoo hoo.
(THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE SLAP HAPPY/ listening to pure metal)
psss.. not to mention supporting the lord of darkness and all things truly evil and foul by creating super cute things... automatically creating polarity in all exposed to the madness.
PSS... I have a Travel blog now.. Things will be a little separate. here is the link:
http://travelpod.com/members/beccadang
Journey well,
Becx
