What really matters? seriwous

I have had a different sleeping pattern, which it is okay. I feel like I still get thing accomplished.

This moment reminds me when I was younger. I used to never sleep. I would listen to music make things or rearrange my room, or something of that matter. It is the only time where I am the only one awake. It is nice. It is making me feel like myself again.

A lot has changed. Like, everything got peeled away. Everything that was not serving me, left. Left with grace. In my mind I am like.. "hmmm.. this is interesting."

Different perspective is what I can say about Japan. Blessings. words cannot describe.

I lost 2 members of my linage. both Barbanell's. One was very dear to me. I still am trying to figure out how to process such things. But, maybe I have, and I know my Grate Aunt Flo is always going to be with me.. I hope to be in Long Island, NY in July.
The other was LiLi Barbanell. I wanted to meet her before she passed. She lived in Australia. It is funny how things connect. One more reason why to go to Australia.

I do not feel confused of who I am anymore. More like, this is life. I want the real life and the real Truth.

More and more I experience, the more it is hard to find.

These moments of life I feel grateful for such understanding. I do my best to not live in fear.

I haven't been going out much, I feel that I have things to complete for myself. It is and inward experience that I am getting used to.

*I am almost complete with my children's kids book for Polarity/awareness

*I am almost done with Clinic hours.

I hope to be back in the NW in April. To play a Didgeridoo show.

I feel like it would be good for me to get out there. To show my true colors. I have a lot of support for my music up there. I have a sense of urge to be drenched in it. It will be empowering.
Another reason is to see Dole. He is still in Portland, OR with my friend Myron and his daughter Ama.

I have that feeling of waiting for the universe to show me a path of my next step in my life.


It is different. It feels good. It will just happen. I can handle that.

I will also be holding a Didgeridoo workshop. April 2nd. whoo hoo.


(THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE SLAP HAPPY/ listening to pure metal)
psss.. not to mention supporting the lord of darkness and all things truly evil and foul by creating super cute things... automatically creating polarity in all exposed to the madness.


PSS... I have a Travel blog now.. Things will be a little separate. here is the link:
http://travelpod.com/members/beccadang



Journey well,

Becx

no matter where I go I will always find truth.

Once again I am updating, because I don't see much of you.
this is what I can share so you can get a lease a piece of the jigsaw puzzle I have created.

*I am still working at Echo Coffee. I really love the people who I work with. For some reason working at a coffee shop gives me great balance in my life.... and through there I find the resource I need for my other aspects of my life.
*I might be getting funding for my book, which is amazing. I hope that works out because I need it.. I am really glad I am not rushing this project. I was at first, but I think it has enough fire to continue to burn. It reminded me of one of my intentions for the book..... ask for community help... I realized I could just take matters in my own hands and just get it done... but letting go of that... I found people willing to help me and have it organically grow through community efforts. I feel truly blessed and not stressed in the moment. haha... in the moments......
* I wanted a art show I have gotten it.... in 3 folds, in the matter of couple days apart. hahaha.... but it will work out. I am excited. one will be a installation piece.
* the clinic feels good too... I finally reached the rains of the carriage.. and I feel in my place, FINALLY, which is nice. We are taking 2 weeks off... I feel like a break is needed..... and pace the 2 weeks, and change up the energy a bit. Next year..... WHOO HOOO!!!
*I am excited to work on another kids book. which I have started.. and the story I really enjoy.


Main charter.... first time drawling realistically


*Still deciding what is happening next. It is funny. because I am more in the moments in my life that I cannot dream about what is next.. what is next is what is next like. HI, EVERYONE. Life is a dream....

Till next time............... deep sea .



Here are some pictures:

I had to stop from my bike ride home from work and just BE in this beauty.

Richard my co worker saw that the leaf got some guns man... look at those muscles

I am in a place I call home after (NYC/LONGISLAND)

I have come to realize this is for me to remember what I have done and what I am doing.. I tend to forget how much I do. I also forget how full my life really is.. this is a reminder.

Whoa.

NYC/Long island.

Bizzarr, family, lower east side, brooklyn, Manhattan, comic con, ADI DA ART SHOWING!, 10 MOONs(Heather as her beautiful self and others), the opposities!

Since my travels I have been more motivated to continue my life in the most creative way possible.

I continue to have crazy tall tails happening to me along the way.

I finally feel like myself again thanks to a wonderful lady Junko.

It took me almost a month to gather everything that has occurred of the time line from my birthday till yesterday.

everything is relative, thank you Albert.

I am full of things to do to continue my crafting of myself.

I am in Arizona to gather up my strengths and credential's to able me to feel confident in my being.

I finally got a computer (thanks to Jessica <3) I am able to finally edit the kids book hunter and I have been working on for a year or so!! hurray!!!! I am so stoked to publish this... my heart flutters!

Raw cacao has been my side mate on this journey and I honor its pure essence.

The building of my life. moving forward.

Coordinating a clinic for myself and other therapist to use their gifts. The ground works for further possibilities in the medical worlds. I can be a business woman.

SIDE PROJECTS

Sign work for Conspire. A collective of artist coming together to sell/work on art. little bits of treats and drinks. New art.... figured out something awesome. all about windows, no more doors. Continue to co create.. grown, support, love. as I see it.

*Art up at Southwest Institute of Healing Arts. I hope to do a whole piece soon. Crafting as I type out these words. About my experience there. Creation.

*I got a Job at a coffee shop called Echo Coffee. http://www.echocoffee.com/

*I will have my therapy room up soon.. collaborating with a European facial and wax lady. Stoked. trades and clients galore!

*Starting to illustrate another kids book, this time it is not my story... butt..... somehow the frequency of the story relates to me.

*I'm learning about wines and wine tasting as well, if anyone is interested on wine tasting let me know.

till next time.

everything is a balancing act.

blessings, be well,

Becccaaa!!!!!

pivital movements

I am back from the road to the desert.

The sun is shinning

The illustrations are complete for my book

HURRAY

working on the messenger's.

Creating Blue prints.

Crafting Collectively healing clinics

Meeting people

putting my work out into the world.

NEXT

I go to NYC

In search of a publisher

Family love from long island to NYC

enjoying the moments with my Father in the EAST.

Finding my way to my roots

deeper and deeper I must go

For there is completion on the other side.

POLAND/AUSTRALIA/EUROPE

wind will be taking me places.

I hope all is well with everyone.

this is my update of my life.

enjoy.

be well, love bliss

Becca

Sea to the ttle Portland woosh

DOLE/UPSIDE

every stamp was filled with love

etable flowers mango fennel. yum yum

keeping in classy

Buzz time line pictures, snap snap... what a good guy

MoTH... monster of a dog. love



imagery

healing summit

jay dubber.. really awesome person.. manafestation magic..

BRIDGE TO THE port.

true identity with a dear friend

A person is limited according to his or her attachment. It doesn't matter what you have or what you don't have, it matters only how easily you can let go..
yogi bhajan



What is real to me is compassion. Finding someone true potential and holding space for them to find there own way with life. The only lens I want to see through is. is. is. compassion. I cannot Judge your journey.. you cannot judge mine...


I am here.

Reality Itself Is Truth Itself

Is The Beautiful Itself.
-Avatar Adi Da

the Land of........

Crafter

Chad and Billy



Cody, the metal didg crafter!

Love... is what is.

when I dis burst into the universe I would like to come back as moss and create an eco system

vibration sound bounce...

All I can say is, slug slug slugzzzz

Family LOVE
Blessings
Oregon is over for the moment.
New Adventure